Thursday, December 30, 2010

the world on a string

As the new year approaches and when many people feel the need to hit the reset button of their life, I wish mine to rewind a year back and repeat. The past 12 months have brought a fair share of good lessons, happy moments and most importantly hope. Love and luck stood by me..Fariz and I are ready to take the next big step in our journey together. But even though the year ahead promises to be very exciting, somehow I'm a lil bit upset to see 2010 end here..what if lady luck suddenly decides to deceive me?

and owh if you're wondering, I'm not really one of those resolution makers, coz for one, they're not my thing. Resolutions are meaningless blurbs. Probably because I set crazy goals, like promising myself to spend less hours surfing the net or to not buy anymore shoes??! to wake up early in the morning (which I tell myself to do every night before I sleep, but I never did)..It is like making a promise that I don't want to make..or saying maybe or I'll try..why write a depressing list of things to do? You know at least your resolutions must be something you WANT to do instead of just something you better off doing..know what I mean?

and I usually live for the day, taking one thing at a time. Planning ahead is not my forte. When I really have a pile of things to do and started complaining, Fariz will make me write my to-do-list and that really, is the closest I get to being organized. I mean, even in other areas of life~ like shopping, I don't make lists. I trust my instinct, I follow my heart and do what any girl in a candy shop would do~ buy whatever I feel like buying! simply because I act on impulse rather than thought. and nowadays, the furthest I get to planning is always about what to wear tomorrow or what and where to eat. though another exception is probably the wedding~ which I tell you I am only the least bit enjoying it coz it involves a lot of shopping and spending m$n$y that I either don't have or that are not mine.. hahah

So anyway here I am, welcoming 2011 with arms wide open and totally (not so) ready for whatever it has in store to offer. I've heard that good things don't last, but we will inshaAllah.. I expect much awesomeness to ensue once Fariz and me step up to be man and wife.. at the end, what I really want boils down to mostly two major things; I just want to stay in love and be happy :)

"Samantha Jones: Relationships aren't just about being happy.
I mean, how often are you happy in your relationship?
Charlotte York: Every day.
Samantha Jones: Every day?
Charlotte York:Well, not all day every day but yes, every day."
Sex and the city, 2008

Perfectly, exactly how I feel
No other way can better describe it

I love you Sayang,
Yay! to a happy new year ahead xxx

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

love is no playground

Oh YES I will!!
  1. because when I love somebody as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do
  2. because its funny how we actually got this far after all the misunderstandings, miscommunications and every damn fight, right?
  3. because we grow so much together, especially sideways :p
  4. because I want to feed and fatten you up!! I can't be the fat one in this relationship, now can I?
  5. because I am done kissing frogs..and yada yada none of them but you, actually turned into a real prince! All men are frogs until you set them free. hahaha
  6. because you understand me (or pretend to) when I hardly make any sense which is more than half of the time
  7. and you love me for me regardless of how difficult that might be
  8. because you have never ever got mad at me (no matter how hard I deliberately try to make you to)
  9. because you are lucky that I am not even half as sassy now as I used to be!
  10. because I am tired of sleeping with magazines or books and waking up alone
  11. because it bloody gets me on my nerves when people interrogated me with the intrusive 'when are you getting married' question when all they actually wanted to know is if I am getting married at all. Now a polite answer to this fairly rude question is easy. HAH!
  12. because I don't want to grow old and die alone
  13. because I want you to tell me that I'm pretty everyday :)
  14. because you like me even without make-up
  15. because I want to make you breakfast and make your bed. If I ever resolute to wake up early enough, that is
  16. because you are my rock, my baby, my lover, my crying shoulder, my driver, my partner in crime, my shopping buddy, my bank-er, my soldier, my cameraman, my entertainment, my happiness, my bestfriend forever
  17. because I am a shopaholic and you're a workaholic. I can help you spend the money you make because shopping is what I do best
  18. because I can make you cute babies with a hint of Eurasian mix
  19. because you've mastered the art of reading my mind. You know when yes means yes and yes means no and no means yes and when a no is a no
  20. because you value the fact that I speak femininity instead of reality.You know when I scream LEAAVE that actually means come back, talk and pujuk me until I feel better now! right? and when I say 'I don't want to talk to you' it means totally the opposite! <-- keep this in mind, always will you?
  21. because I need a fat durable punching bag to throw tantrums at..and you're one :)
  22. because you have high tolerance to PMS, my mood swings and bridezilla attacks! ~ tested and true hehehe
  23. because nothing beats my love towards you, with all my heart and handbags and whole wardrobe and shoes
  24. because being with you is the closest I get to being a Princess. Did you grow up in Disneyland or something!! Did you?
  25. because you're not one in a million, but you're the only one :)
  26. because at 26, love is no playground. Dating isn't exactly my idea of fun anymore when a marriage is :)

Friday, December 24, 2010

more love

To: Fariz~ lotsa lotsa l.o.v.e and more

Thursday, December 16, 2010

which one are you?

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
guidance and support,

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may even teach you, LOVE

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

your need has been met, your desire
fulfilled and so their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
God probably has bigger plans for you

and there’s no need to miss those from your past

There’s a reason they didn’t make it to your future

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but
what's meant to be will always be
and it will find its way

source: email

Monday, December 13, 2010

one less lonely girl

"Absence sharpens LOVE
Presence strengthens it"

Yeay! Fariz is back :)

Here's to happy hearts!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

catching up

07/12/2010 09:28:22
I love you. U kan princess dlm hati i. So i akan berusaha utk bwat u happy wlpun i bz. I feel bad bile xdpt bwat u happy. Im sorry k sayang. I nak masuk meeting balik, nnt I call u lg. Miss u baby! I love u so much!

This is what I call reassurance.
I love the way it helps to settle my spirit just like the usual way it does.
thank you Sayang

I'll stop checking my phone for awhile then

Monday, December 6, 2010

Day 6: Not enjoying the silence

I am a big fan of cliches~ but not for this one. coz well, it doesn't ring true..

the past few days haven't been any easier emotionally than last week. I have been putting off blogging because I can't seem to pull myself out of this funk. I thought if I give me some time, things will improve or maybe my outlook would change and I really, really want this post to be the one where I can say that I am alive and happily kicking. But alas, truth is I continue to reside in the bitter barn..

and as much as I dream of a successful hard working man to make a husband, Fariz 's work is showing no signs of slowing down and as he continues to pull away to focus on work, I came to a depressing concern that we're slowly becoming emotionally distant..are we? are we Sayang?

For one thing, the fact that he is not available for texting or calling during the day, results in me wanting it more. I want to try to fill the void by hearing from him more than just our goodnight chat. I want to hear from him throughout the day. I want to know if he is okay, I want to know where he went, what he had for lunch and how he feels. Most of all, I want to know if he is thinking about me and if he misses me at all...

Thursday, December 2, 2010

You and I

Finding new music and discovering that new favourite song, it makes me feel just like falling in love again..Since its been awhile that I last shared a video, here's one. It isn't exactly new but I just realised how cute the lyrics are, so have a listen ...

Don't you worry there my honey
We might not have any money
But we've got our love to pay the bills

Maybe I think you're cute and funny
Maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you if you know what I mean

Oh lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I


Day 2: the long awaited call

The telephone reception was very poor when Fariz called. All I really heard was him chanting he misses me, over and over again. And before we hung up I think all we said was 'I love you (too)' about a hundred times more than usual.

Aside from the long awaited call, nothing else special happened :(

Isn't it funny how sometimes when ONE person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated?

I miss you so much too Sayang
and just like you want me to, I am reflecting on the days when you are near and I took you for granted

So, lets 'fight less and love more' when you come back k? :p

sorry this is a terribly unrelated photo. but I still want to put one, hence~..

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Day 1: Good night nobody

I'm all tucked up in bed, meaning to be asleep a good hour ago, but my sleepy time doesn't seem to be doing the trick


Let it be known that Fariz is away on a business trip. The land down under is still awaiting his arrival but I am already wishing that he would come back to the radar and talk to me now :(

Isn't it nice to have someone who will always answer your call, just like how you would always answer theirs?..

It is getting a little bit too lonely here. I hope Fariz will land safe and soundly and quickly give me my usual dose of night call

Oh well.

For us, it’s one of those things that we have to go through to be stronger

and this time round it is LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP for real

hell yea..
Bring it on! Pfffttt!!