me and my wedding woes

All I want is to be a Princess for a day. Just one day.

but the wedding planning and whatnot suddenly seems daunting and on the spur of the moment I am worried about how my dress would look like, the shoes I would wear (I already bought two sparkly new shoes but still not totally happy), the invitations, the favors and gifts, the dais and deco, my bridesmaids and their dresses, the food, the music.. and now on top of that all, I wonder if all of the pieces that I stress so much picking out would actually come together cohesively.. will they? and what if they don't?

In all truthfulness when it comes down to it what I really want now is to nikah, scrrrrrraaaaaaap the whole bersanding and kenduri shit and straight away get on to moving in together...(after all that is the ultimate goal!)

but then again a little voice inside of me tells me not to give up that dream. I am only going to be doing this once and I don't have control over much else, especially on the happenings of the day itself and the days after...

owh I am torn

why are weddings so difficult?!

from a fiancee to a wife, and a bridezilla in between :(

the sunrise on your face

It was a day entirely filled with shopping..in and out of malls and stores. I was elated, what more could a girl want than a terribly girly spending spree in two shopping malls at a time? we were there at the MV and the Gardens since eleven and we left just before the stores begin to shut. but at one point halfway, Fariz got a little tired of too much walking that we decided to head back to the car for his little nap :)

So this is Fariz, snoozing Zzz and then awaken by me..oooops!
his eyes widen slightly and he smiled..

you know a picture is good when it makes you *melt*

and owh

yes you are Sayang

Need I even tell you the reason I am in love?

Get mad then get over it

When feeling angry, hold back but do not quell. The trick is not to completely ignore your anger, but to express it in a healthy manner.. Communicate why you’re feeling angry but stand against the urge to say things for the sole purpose of causing hurt and inflicting pain. because some words, once spoken can never be taken back, they echo in the minds and hang in the air.....


p/s: Sorry for the horrible things I've said :'(

of being 26 so far

a bouquet of surprise

when I least expect it :)

Fariz sent me a dozen of beautiful, long-stemmed red roses and got it delivered to my office

Owh.my.God.how.sweeyt of you.. two

Two? why two?

Well, I'm not going to spill all the juicy details here of course, especially when I am still way too giddy with happiness even a thousand words cannot begin to describe exactly how I feel.

Suffice to say that I have the TWO most wonderful people in my life that keeps me going. and only I know why :)

anyhooo, thank you Sayang for bringing the bliss to me for my birthday this year. To best describe you, I shall say that you are the living proof of Prince Charming. I don't know what I did to deserve you, but you're in love with me and I am with you too! It would have been much better if you were there to surround me, but it was a good (and successful) surprise nonetheless. So surprise I was, that I had no expectations for any bolt from the blue. Just where did the girlfriend instinct go??!

and thank you Miss Angel Chee Lee Yin for making it all happen (and for the cake at lunch too). You did so much for me again this time. If only you weren't a girl..I swear I will be marrying you too!

one fine day

As Fariz drove home today, we talked about the perks of living together and being married, one fine day..hehehe

what is the thing about being married that you look forward to the most?

it was a 'test' question coz I wanted to find out how much he would like to be married to me..

apart from the very obvious response anyone will give, Fariz answered this question perfectly :)

He simply wants a wife that makes life ...work!

swing the spinning steps

I am feeling exceptionally content today :) Surprisingly no bundling anger. A handful of very dear friends and a little much-needed retail therapy are sometimes all I need to keep me going :)

it feels good too, to be able to give Fariz a little break from having to spend so much time trying to settle me down and put me to rest at bedtime..

and so while I am at this, I might as well just share this with you..In case you are in one of those funks where nothing feels quite right, I want to make you feel better too :)

Count your garden by the flowers,
Never by the leaves that fall;

Count your days by golden hours,
Don't remember clouds at all.

Count your age by friends, not foes.

and Count your blessings instead of woes!!

a literal BFF

One of the perks of being engaged and a bride-to-be is I get to see a lot more of Fariz than before :) there are just more excuses reasons to spend time together, bridal fairs & expos to visit, people such as the wedding vendors and photographers to meet..and yes hunting for our long-list of hantaran gifts too (read: shopping)~ always the fun part :)

Fariz too gets treated better and more seriously since he is the "fiance" as opposed to my "date". Mommy became a wee bit more permissive about us 'going out and meeting up' and so my monthly (now weekly/fortnightly) trips to KL invites less inquiries which can get too pesky sometimes..blaarrgh.. And on some nights when he takes me out I even get my midnight curfew extended :)

In other news, both Fariz and I have swimmingly survived the super-boring-droning pre-marital course over the previous weekend. Aside from a couple of very funny Ustadz, some of the talks were Oh my god such a snooze-fest. Fariz even managed to doze off a little on the uncomfortable metal chair with minimal cushion padding. Either that or I saw him dawdling the hours away with his iPhone. I wouldn't say that it was a complete waste of time, but it wasn't exactly a lot of fun either..but as off right now, at least we're happy that we've completed one of the many things on our to-do-list.

Can't believe how much hassle it is to just get legally wed. but then again, to be getting married to the love of my life, it's going to be well worth all the trouble, right?

What does being married means to you?

A literal BFF: For eternity, you’ll have someone to be a kid with, take road trips with, cry and laugh with, make decisions with, and tell everything to.

owh..
I
cannot
wait.

Wordless Wednesday: Rainbow after Rainfall

And here comes the Sun :)

of date night

Did I tell you that Fariz has successfully put together a divine datenivessary treat ? :) The food was exquisite, the weather was nice and I was over the moon..it's a big thing for both of us considering that in our relationship I am the person who gets to dictate what and where to eat, every time and all the time..heheh..

I had a good weekend. I just wish it was longer!! like they say, nothing beats quality time in real-time, real life!

one year and counting

and a little less than six months to go before we will be man and wife!!?
Oh my goodness! How did it get here so fast?