dreamily daydreaming

To be completely honest, I would love to pen down every detail of my journey to becoming Mrs. Fariz ..but I am afraid I have to tell you that our wedding preparation isn't exactly under full swing yet to begin with, and my life doesn't revolves around the nuptial alone anyway..

so what the heck?

I'll just write randomly, whenever I feel like it, right?

At the moment, we're quite bogged down with the idea of having a pre-wedding photoshoot..I know it sounds all so cheesy, and perhaps even annoying too ~Imagine a couple skipping through a park or frolicking through flowers, peering around a tree at each other~ but while superfluous, of course, it is yet another modern day wedding trend appearing on the scene in recent years.. It is TRENDY and since everyone is having it, I am sure going to feel a wee bit left out and upset if we don't :(

So, yes in case you still don't know, I am like that..I give in to temptation and peer pressure..looking at how other brides to be are preparing for their big day freaks me out beyond all belief.. that sometimes, it even got me thinking that maybe I should just be banned from blog hopping, googling or the internet all together..because they are doing me more harm than good, it seems..

but the other thing about me is, ONCE I get an idea planted in my head, you can forget about trying to shake it off..unless if I happen to get those lightbulb moments when I suddenly feel different and may want to completely change my mind about something, then I will.. Fortuitously, I know I can make Fariz get me whatever I want ..all I need to do is make the wish, and you bet! for whatever I fall in love with he can learn to love too..hehehe..(told you, he spoils me rotten)

More or less though, I have already envisioned a lot of what I wanted and decided that nothing too elaborate or artsy and expensive like splurging on a high end photographer is necessary..We will be more than happy just to have the photos as a keepsake to look at when we're old, wrinkled and grey..right Sayang?

and in my search for inspiration I found these;

do click on respective links for sources and more pictures

'The notebook' inspired engagement photos:

'500 days of summer' inspired wedding:

'Wonderland' inspired photos

and finally my favourite, inspired by the movie "UP!"

I don't know how we will have ours..or if we'll actually have it at all.. for now, I enjoy the random daydreams I get about the wedding and even if sometimes I know I am making Fariz sick of my impulsive whims, we're still having fun though :)

and anyway, everything I write here are kind of based on sporadic thoughts..so we'll see how thing goes and I sure will let you know!

counting down the days to see Fariz!

I’m crazy about you. And I want you to know that if I had the choice of hanging with anyone in the entire world or sitting at home with you eating pizza, watching a crappy TV show, I’d choose you every time.

— Scrubs

and you are the best thing that's ever been mine :)
I MISS YOU SAYANG!

you know the way to my heart

Sometimes, I can articulately speak what I feel..other times, I struggle to put how I feel into words, but to no avail..although my heart is overflowing with love, I still almost always find myself staring at this space not knowing what to write and how to put them into coherent sentences..

Hence sorry for the hiatus, albeit temporarily.. I've been trying, I really did.

So if you are still reading this, I shall applaud you for being concern and patient towards my mushiness because I really only truly have the same ol same ol musing on my favourite man, nothing new, more nor less..although I must admit (because if I don't I will be lying) that the intensity of the early infatuation of falling in love is tapering off rather slowly ..and whether we like it or not, it finally hit us that the roller coaster ride of getting married has commences.. it is no longer all about hanging out and having fun as we now have monumental tasks lying ahead of us which is for obvious reasons, scary and especially when I can almost feel the 'bridezilla' lurking and slowly turning up from inside of me....

but like they say, isn't infatuation just the icing on a love cake? truth is, we are not anymore ridiculously etherized by bliss..just simply hooked on romance, and it feels safe :)

fret aside, the good has always outweigh the bad and we're still building good memories day by day, like growing a tall tower of blocks..and in spite of all the nitty-gritty wedding woes messing up our mind and sometimes our mood to be particularly nice to each other, I still find happiness even in the smallest things and silliest jokes he tells me..by making me laugh at the times I thought it was impossible to even smile and by picking me up and fixing me when I hit rock bottom, I must top and thank him for truly knowing the way to my heart..

and on a slightly different note, I probably have to admit that I've lost some degree of mojo to wite lengthy post..but my musing on love is still pretty much scatheless and I do feel that my ardor towards Fariz is growing immersely stronger by every minute ...and you know what's more? I have a nagging suspicion that I will fall even more madly, terribly head over heels in love being married to him one fine day

I LOVE YOU FARIZ HELMI!!!
Do you know? I am so freaking happy that I swear I can even shit rainbows..

dreams are free

I know that in the quest for a wedding of my dream, a time-consuming nerve-racking preparation is inevitable. Even after only a fortnight since the E day, I am already constantly bombarded by the things I think I need to make our wedding perfect. At this point, it’s just hard to tell what really matters and what does not. But isn't it only natural that I want to have my big day as glitzy and as plush as I have envisioned?

So as we are starting to really get into the planning , I find myself endlessly pestering Fariz with ideas and dreams of which I anticipate will evoke petty fights and bickering between the realistic him and idealist within me. But yada yada! though this might not come as something new but it is pretty proven now that Fariz is one of those typical anything-you-want-honey kind of guy. He is OK with all the nitty-gritty wedding details as long as I am pleased, which of course I am not going to complain about :)

Probably all we need is to pray that we are given enough strength to face all there is in store for us. And I've decided that perfection is probably a little too far off the horizon. Our wedding will be anything but grand..We are convinced that there will be some “fluff” stuff that we won't get to have because it just won't make the cut..and the things we plan can and probably will go wrong at some point. But we will still have a special day, regardless.

Wish I can fast forward the time, I cannot wait!