Wildan: The boy in Heaven

Hi,


It's been way too long that I had to stare and think for a bit which email did I use to sign into my blogspot. Honestly, I wanted to stop writing all together, I mean it's been on its last leg for so so many months anyway. and who reads blogs anymore these days? We just don't have the patience to read long posts anymore, do we?  


But my biggest fan (and probably my one and only fan) Fariz, said he misses reading my blog (which is all about him anyway) and wants me to write more! Awww..really? I read some old posts and wonder if it was really me who wrote them. I was so cheesy, like a silly fifteen year-old schoolgirl ;p

Anyway, we know nine months since January is a very long time, hell it’s the time it takes to birth a baby! 


So first and foremost, here.. meet Baby Wildan Danial who has just arrived from heaven :)

Healthy and perfect. I'm so proud of you, my womb! hahaha

The first couple of weeks was incredibly....for the lack of a better word, INCREDIBLE. It felt like the longest few weeks I ever had. I was overwhelmed by the fact that we finally have a baby to call ours, our own. I was happy and I was sad. When we were alone I was alternating between smiles and tears. I felt relief, thankful, sore, anxious, tired, scared, doubtful, terrified, guilty, angry (read: breastfeeding), I felt everything. Baby blues are no joke. 


But don't worry, today as I am writing this, Baby Will is just 2 weeks shy from his second month birthday and it's safe to say that I (and baby) have survived this long with my sanity still intact. *wipes sweat*


Other than being nocturnal, Baby Will is cool. He hardly fusses except for obvious reasons. and even when he get's a bit cranky at times, he is still too cute to stay angry at. hmm..but oh well...I guess, God made all babies cute so that we wont throw them out the window ;p

On a similar note, Fariz has been amazing too. I couldn't thank him enough for being utterly patient and calm throughout the crazy rollercoaster ride. I think he makes a better dad than I, a mom. Sometimes when Baby Will cries, I cry too and super daddy had to carry baby in one arm and hold and sooth me in the other. Talk about multitasking. 

Anyway, I could go on to write a whole new book about this tiny bub and our little adventures with this newbie. but I'll save that for another day.


and for other related updates, I shall see you in the next post!










Life according to instagram

Hello!

To say that it's been awhile is an understatement, I know.

My last post was almost exactly a year ago and I have no good excuse for not blogging. Well, other than I don't feel like blogging, that is. ;p

Moving in with Fariz meant I lost a major chunk of the precious commodity called time while I learn to 'manage' other things and people. Life has taken over my life and the funny thing about life completely taking over is that there is very little time to actually sit down and write about it.

And also probably what they say is true- blogging is a thing in past. There is a reason why Instagram is called INSTAGRAM. Put INSTANT and PHOTOGRAM together and TADAAAA! forget about writing 200 words on why I think a pair of shoes are cute. 

But anyway, I'm back and I’m pleased to report that I've recently begun to feel the pull to start blogging again. Partly because one of my new year's resolution is to finally start writing again and not just thinking about it. Which is why I'm here. I wanted to write about how work is taking over my life and there's nothing like coming home to the best husband in the world. I wanted to talk about our dreams and what makes me happy and what breaks my heart. I wanted to talk about how Farez knocks my socks off every day that we spend together.

Work aside and some other trials we met along the way, 2012 has been an amazing one year in its own way.

and of course, not to leave you empty handed, here's life according to Instagram:


           A pink rose on my first day at work. Totally made my day.

SO GOOD TO BE HOME YOU HAVE NO IDEA!

"End of the day" conversations when Fariz's ready to go to bed. He whines that it’s already late but I don't care pfft...

Fariz's great comic collection. It's true, inside every man there's a little boy LOL

Got roses delivered to work on Valentines. Awww (no) thanks for the public display of affection.

'When I shop, the world gets better, and the world is better, but then it's not, and I need to do it again'- LOL my all time fave quote. because it is true.

The almost forgotten wedding album.

The almost forgotten wedding album 2.

On a perfect Saturday morning. Fariz was up early running errands while I catched up on my beauty sleep. Bliss.

My personal highlight of 2012. Here's me @ 9 weeks pregnant and innocent.

Little angel bids us goodbye at 10 weeks young and I will never look at pregnancy the same way again. Heard Fariz weeping next to my bed, as I slowly woke up from what I thought was a very bad dream, which was not.

Chocolates and little love notes- a constant and daily affirmation of the love we share.

Fariz, he is never too cool for school :)

I (super) rarely cook but when I do, it blows Fariz's mind away HAHAHAH. This is curry, if you know what I mean..

#1 tip to a happy relationship- always say thank you, practicing gratitude can go a long way in a marriage.

Aww meet this cute little munchkin- my nephew, Raziq!


I love doing nothing and everything with Fariz. Just the two of us. There is no feeling like it in the world.


A good husband is the one who leaves the prayer mat open to signal it’s your turn. Mine, throws two prayer mats open so we can pray together.

   Tip #2: never too proud to apologize. This was a handmade card by Fariz after a big fight to say sorry and stay strong!

Oooops, random me photo on Eid.

The day I turned ancient. Age is (just a number) such a bummer.

Recent fashion finds

Currently the latest on my Instagram: Epic arm drawing, 500-days-of-summer inspired by Fariz.

ok, too lazy now to do a proper closure. So long, until then!

(p.s; please expect vomits of Instagram photos in future posts too, I have gobs more of them that grace my phone!)

Save me!

CONFESSION TIME!

Before Fariz, I was once a damsel in distress who dated Mr.X.

Mr. X is totally Mr. Wrong. and Mr. Wrong is Mr. X.

I don't know what would have happened if Fariz never came to save me back then. I guess, probably still searching my soul -___-" The relationship was just too weird and all too wrong that I can clearly remember the pain of spending every minute of my waking hours contemplating whether to let go or to not let go. It was very hard, though I still don't quite understand why.

but since the day Fariz stepped into my life, my faith for love and fairy tales got restored! I spent a few days being in a 'relationship' with two people at once but you know I better be safe than sorry! #selfish# I mean I've got to hold on to Fariz and his interest towards me in case he changes his mind while I make up my own right? ;p after thinking and over thinking my choices, I decided that the grass is always greener on the other side and I always like fresh brand new boys things anyway wtf, so off I threw the old Mr.X out of the window and told him goodbye (again easier said than done).

"sometimes you have to let go of the past, to make room for better things"

but it didn't quite end right there. Every now and then (and 2 years plus ever since) Mr.X still tries to re-establish contacts out of the blue. He is annoying because he dissipates as he pleases and comes back with casual hellos, as if nothing has changed.

but COME ON lah things have changed! by a lot!

I used to feel stirred by his coming and going but that was long before Fariz decided to totally sweep me off my feet. and now I don't feel his pain anymore (or rather mine). I'm really sorry that I've chosen to walk a different path in life and I am sorry I still end up at the same happy goal. Ok maybe I cheated but perhaps we both simply deserve somebody better so please I don't wish anyone to be angry at me right now *big wet puppy eyes*

Haih...

Sometimes I think Fariz and I should have met earlier in our lives. Saves us (and a number of other people) from heartbreaks and heartaches :)

anyway, the reason I wrote all of this is actually just to say that Fariz got me a new mobile number. and the cherry on the top has gotta be a spanking new phone too!! Thank you Sayang (for the iphone, not really the new number)

we've decided that it's time for Mr.X to move on (because we already did) and to help him with that I'm terminating my current number so that he can't reach me no matter how he tries *weak smile*

Reciprocity of liking

I'm moving to a new city and let’s face it— although exhilarating it is a daunting life change. Pretty soon, I'll have to get to know the new place, my new job and the people!! yes NEW PEOPLE! I know this sounds a little silly but I am nervous!

What's bothering me the most is the feeling of uncertainty about my colleagues-to-be: are they the friendly tribe or a bunch of bullying noobs? will they think I'm pretty ugly? will they like my shoes? #vain

you know why?? because I'm no good at making new friends!! (not good at keeping old friends either but that's another story) I like people who likes me and I will smile back if you smile at me! Also I'm not funny (unlike Fariz who has that permanent smile plastered all over his face uurrggh..) and all I wish for is people know that being friendly and bonding with people doesn't come easy for me. Although good thing is once you're on the list, you'll be forever on the list.

So, hurry up get in the queue now!

but if you think I'm weird, maybe it's coz you've not heard of the "Reciprocity of Liking" rule? I stand by that, like totally.

Adapting to the new place will probably take some time, but in the meanwhile Fariz will have to put on his full-time-husband+boyfriend+bestfriend+your everything-hat to somehow accommodate the feeling of distance of my far away family and old friends.

Anyway, on a totally different note, here's some pictures from the weekend :)

Fariz took me to meet the United Buddy Bears!

the bears reflect the masterpiece of the cultural wealth of our world. but I'm just not exactly artsy fartsy so I won't be spilling comments in this category LOL

so go and hug the bears yourselves yo!

and finaaaally a picture of me and the majestic dragon,

well because it's Chinese New Year people!

p.s: Internet shopping habit is getting more out of control. Yikes!

Scarf: TudungPeople

Top: ThePopLook

goodbye long distance

I don't want to start talking about leaving this place that I conveniently call home but seriously the traveling back and forth kills the s*** out of me already -__-

So, Fariz and I are officially moving in together this Feb! like finally!

goodbye Long Distance and hellllllo Living Together

for some reason somebody is freaking out a little

coz I am certainly no picnic to live with *evil queen*

HAHAHAHA ;p

Don't worry, this is just a joke. Fariz bought this during our honeymoon to cheer me up :) and we certainly believe that the only rules in our marriage are those we both choose to agree with :)